Delta Sunshine

Today is a sunny and absolutely beautiful day in Portland, and once again I am so happy to be here.  I am so fortunate to have the amazing and wonderful ppl in my life that I do.  I am so fortunate to have a great family and to be living among the hippest, weirdest, most open and peaceful people in the US.

INTERJECTION: I am so so annoyed by Elijah and Jezebel always telling each other every detail about me.  I feel like I can't do anything with either of them without having the other report on me.  I need some alone time, is what it comes down to.  I need some time away from this relationship.  It is bugging me on a level and I'm not sure how to reconcile that... Or even what the level is.

Perhaps I'm going down a wrong path with being in a bisexual polyamorous relationship with at least one person (J) who is actually neither of those things.  I feel involuntarily that I'm the recipient of her being jealous and/or feeling left out of the relationship, which is not true and the only reasons she hasn't physically been around are her due to her own planning.

This is what detractors would point to as why poly doesn't work.  I personally think that it's true, but only because everyone involved has to be committed to poly and committed to getting past the mono training society has given us. Which I'm not entirely sure is the case at the moment...

Makes me long for the simpler times when it was just me & Uriah and our various other lovers.  But I didn't see that as a long-term true primary partnership either.  At least there was less jealousy and awkwardness with that.  Except that time when there was... Ahh.  Alas.

Everyone here that's a native Portlandian seems to be totally OK with talking about relationships and sex all the day long, no matter how weird it gets.  Non-Portlandians, such as Thom, have no freaking idea about Portlandia.  He is headed back from whence he came shortly, aka, he's just too New England.  It's all well– I was too Portland for New England, which is why I came back.  Long story.