Observatory

I came out at my volunteer position on the side of one person that not only seemed to irritate everyone but actually was the person I journaled about before.  Aka, the guy that wrote some comments about me (about stylistic parts of my writing that in fact were not my but rather the editors' fault) on the public forum that were seen by thousands of people.  I don't exactly know why, but I like him and I disagree with most of the people there.  I am glad that I came out and told him.  I don't know if there is going to be a factioning off of supporters or what, but I am curious to see where it will lead.

Also, Hannah reamed me hard today.  Not literally.


[I just want to note, on a side tangent, how awesome it is that I actually do need to clarify that a hard reaming by a hot girl must in some instances not actually be taken literally.  Because my life is awesome like that (:0.]  

I understand that I am going 100% flake these days.  It is starting to become evident that I just am a hermity bitch sitting writing articles on my laptop, and getting cooked for/ fucked/ watching Battlestar Galactica in between, then going dancing/playing board games/getting all sexxxy with people nearly every night.  I like my life and I think all this is New Relationship Energy (NRE), as it's apparently called.  Still, I have been losing motivation to do anything else.  There are other, business-related reasons why I was so blase about the business, I guess we needed to have this argument so that I could say how I really feel.  I am motivated anew by it.

That was a good part of the day, after which I took like a 2 hour nap.  I re-read my book journal from a year ago and I was in a terrible place in life, but mainly the issues were that I was lonely and broke and coming off a realm of lost possibilities.  So now I am back in my home town, surrounded with friends and loved ones, and with a world of amazing possibilities around.  And yet, I am the same person, sitting at home with my writing, and now with a lover to be with me and help me grow back into being a beautiful flower rather than a dried-up shell.